Some things you’re just not aware of that you’re doing them. Some things have more meaning than you thought in the 1st place.

I didn’t realize his head was right there where it should be.

I didn’t realize I got this T at my 43rd birthday, the 1st birthday I got older than him. The moment I would be older, forever, than my 1 year older brother.

& When I got this T, I didn’t realize it was my birthday.
It was the 1st birthday, as far as I can remember, I didn’t celebrate with others. Not even with myself.

Still I got this T that day as a present.